I do not deserve all the attention and all the love from my friends.
Am no angel, no saint.

Mean bitch I am.
Bitch and criticise people without blinking or caring if they are wretched by my crude remarks.
I do not deserve to have them remembering my day.
I threw temper at them whenever pms haunts me. (excuses)
Am not a good friend to them.

I do not deserve the gifts.
I always forget birthdays and did not put in effort to choose pressies for them.
Sucky friend I am.

Seeing the things they did for me, I am touched.
Not the amount the gift cost, not the quantity of gifts I received but the effort they went through to make it memorable for me.
e.g. finding the perfect gift for me, choosing the gifts they think I will like, writing cards for me, making a effort to stay awake to msg me and plan a party/ nightout for me.

It really doesn't matter if there is any gifts or not.
It really doesn't matter if there is any birthday cake.
It really doesn't matter if there is anyone singing birthday song.
It seriously doesn't matter.


All it matters is I know you people care for me.
I am contended. Really am.

I lost my hp.
yes! you heard me.
Bye sonyericsson.
Don't ask me why, I just lose it.



29th april. After "Eight Below" around 2.30am
Is less than one yr old and is lost.
The one who picked it up and off-ed it will have constant itch on his/her hands.
Is will be so itchy that he/ she will scratched till pus ooze out.
The money he/ she make from selling my hp will not be able to pay for the medical bills.
I am mean. I have the right to.

Basket! I lost my freaking hp for the first time on the day before my birthday!
WTH!!