did piercings!
Clown:A buffoon or jester who entertains by jokes, antics, and tricks in a circus, play, or other presentation.
Slack working...
My mum thinks i am too materialistic but wanting the best for oneselve is materialistic meh?! Ain't I right?! My mum alway says,"you wan the luxury, you work for it. Simple as that." I hate her for showing me how realistic this world is at a tender age of 15. China ITP interview is on the 31st and $200 must be handed in. God! pls rain money down!!! Amen
Let me go Home.
Asthmatic attack
back From GYL2005 Camp.
I will be leaving in an hr or so time.
I have one whole list of things to bring for Turi!
The Truth about Men
Painfully burnt.
Went East Coast to cycle with my bitches.
love it.
So me. Had been thinking of doing a design since i last saw a girl with a design of flower.
I got big loops and yet so bare thus in the spur of the moment, I got more than I need.
Was cool. Love the girl who pierced for me.
My style! the style i never dare portray but yet mi.
the guy is nice too... very like alan.
the good old days.
Sleeve tattoos, like mi disturb, funny and yet a dash of badness in him.
went plasma... ok lar should be fun but was where too tired to be crazy.
Sun burnt due to swimming... i think i am the onli idiot!
onli 2 hrs leh
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
That's my new hp
white and flip.
I like.... the light and stuff...
Got it two days ago and i changed my number. ask mi for it.
Von won toto $30!!
So cool...
I believe in beginner's luck. So i got toto too!!!
Aunty very nice say good luck to mi when i bought it AND !
I buy quick pick $3.50, she gave mi $5 worth of toto.
Diao. Gd sign!!!
Let's c if i win...
Threading and got new hp.
Hair cutting?! should i or not?! I like the thickness, no more like feather.
Is pony tail!!! But damn cannot managed lar... dunnno how to comb to look like a ren!
fringe too long too. bleah!
stay at hm and relax till evening go mustafa!!! the indian's place.
coconuts!!!
C-o-c-o-n-u-t!!!
Monday, October 24, 2005
My version of the word clown:
one who ugli-field oneselve to make pple laugh
one who do exaggerated actions to trigger laughters
one who loses themselve just to entertain the crowd
one who hate themselve in their private time
one who don't know what they want in life
one who hates the role of being the entertainer
one whose friend think they are very happy go lucky
one whose friend always say they make them laugh till stomach ache
one who always look cheerful in actual fact hide it well enough
Hate it when pple say i make them laugh.
Lost myself being the pple they like.The clown of the group.
I told myself I am born to do that.But I am not. I am not born to entertain.I hate being a comedian.
No one takes me seriously.
I toned down but i saw someone who was like me.
When she was doing her act on entertain, it pains me.I was once like her or is still like her.
Laughters surround me but I just stare at her and watch her losing herself.
Teresa and I shared the same view.
A look. A blink. We know we hold the same experience.
The clown with a hidden tears. who will understand?!
No one.
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Sat night went china town walking around.
At sago street, there's actually some da bo gong stuff.
Tiao dang, possessed da bo gong, to do charity.
He cut his tongue to bled himself to write amulet for the pple who is willing to pay.
Me?! I spent $10 to buy a blessed chicken essence while von pay $50 for the same but include a blood amulet for her to bathe with.
Is his blood that is expensive!!!
Anyway, my hp plan is ending soon... thinking of changing hp!! and of course plan.
If change to Singtel or starhub also equals to change number... diao so ma fan!!!
we'll c den.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
I am going to make a list of things to accomplish.
who say u can only make one starting or the year or end of the year?!
I am different! Get it?! hahaLess or no more cold drinks. --> Trigger my asthmaWalk my dog if possible everyday. --> he looks like a piglet nowAt least read 1 book within a month. --> skool and social life left me no time for readingSwim whenever i am free. --> my private moment, my love.Don't eat when I am not hungry. --> craving kills miWalked up the stairs in broad day light. --> no time to jian feiOpen my options. --> let go the nun in me.Save at least 200 a month. --> holiday trips every yr.Repay all the debts especially ren qing zai. maintain friendship.--> I suck at it but i will try.Don't be too greedy 10 will do.
Who will wan to take the worst looking bun when u are buying it?! usually pple will just take either the biggest or the best looking one.
I work hard for watever I wan but is it wrong?! I dun haf parents who will give me the money to buy watever I like. But my parents are not that bad till they don't pay the necessities.
Imagine me working at the age of 15!!! I think is already very young le.
My classmates were watching movie or playing IRC while I work as a telemarketer then.
For wat?! money.
C! Money again!
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Micheal Buble
Fit into my mood.
Results was disappointment so let's not talk abt it.
Walked my dog, he is getting fatter.
Finished my book.
I like it.
Cough endlessly still.
Add whoever I think was worthy in my list.
Contact is something to show that u care, i was told.
But contacts without messaging or talk is wat u call showing concern?!
Crap.
Glad I am sick.
Able to hibernate before I go back to school.
space of my own. Breathing space.
Sinseh. medicine. yucks!
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
When was the last one?!
2-3 yrs ago.
This time, I can't breathe.
I can't lie down and breathe.
Whole night tossing here and there.
Coughing to ease the irritation of my throat.
2 to 3 hrs in Polyclinic.
Had Vantoline and was told my airways has now expand.
Back to the inhaler days.
Screamed by my mum!
She hates inhaler!
As if I love it.
she just dun understand with it I can breathe as least from now.
I onli need them when I cough.
Chinese physician tml. Damn her!
Monday, October 17, 2005
Rope burnt, shagged, shoulder ache, dying of laughters haha and confidence level dropped to zero.
day1
Ferry ride was bad. Rocky.
Almost die from motion sickness.
Ho Rey, nice shy guy, was standing and freaking quiet so holy sze and I got him a seat.
30 min ride and I survived through.
Made a few crazy friends, Xiao Shi, Peiyu, Jean, Mindy and Penny.
Make a fool of ourselve and crap.
First impression for all of them wasn't fantastic.
first impression:
Jean aka the cheap girl who don't know her limit think she very pretty and fool around with Junwei, the player.
Mindy, the materialistic girl who make jeff spent money on her coz jeff was wooing her.
Xiao Shi, jessica's act cute friend, who thinks she is very pretty and she owns the world.
Peiyu, the ah lian.
Penny, no impression.
But in the end, we click like we were so meant for each other. urgh!
haha
heading home
day 1:
Know alot of pple.
Guys as usual onli fly to the pretty one.
Sour I am haha
Different treatments btw the pretty and not so pretty one.
I was thrown down when the guys carried me and jean was placed down. bleah!
okok I am heavy so they can't wait to throw me down. haha
Did things that never in my mind, not even in my darkest dream, thinks I will try.
For example, trust fall!
How to trust the guys when is like the first day?!!!
I voluntered up and wishing they still have the strength to COLLECT THE heavy baggage.
Ethan said he will push me for me to fall.
I closed my eyes, nothing happened.
Stared back at him," tot u pushing me?!"
Saw him lightly touched me, I rowed my eyes.
"this is call push ar?!"
Fell and almost died.
They managed to collect me and I the feeling of falling is urgh!
PPLE DUN EVER TRY JUMPING DOWN BUILDINGS!!
TRY OTHER MEANS!
Moonwalk was sticky and alot of physical contacts with guys.
hugging here and there.
Damn sticky, smelly and conservative.
Spiderweb, I have a taste of cleopatra being carried by men over to another side.
Bags lost, anger, tears, sarcastics remarks and anger management.
Rude girl I am.
Hate EEE lects and Naidu.
Stop picking on us, we know we are smarter than you can imagine.
before heading to batam.
the girl behind is my roommate.
the room. 435
princess bed so cool right?!
hungry ghost. we gorge food like nobody's biz
the pool. we did diving and soaking there.
us
day 2:
Treking.
Easier than we tot.
navigator was lan!
we girls was asled to walk in front coz we always get lost.:P
we sang, laughed and count our paces.
view was beautiful, taste of being a TOMB RAIDER and Mr johnson is the best lar!
Paintball, i went there for this crap.
Fogging goggles, ugly uniform, heavy gun.
Got shot from behind!
That idiot! blue black.
haha was fun.
day3:
rafting, rope burnt.
EEE really stupid! dun heed our advise!
do their own way.
Engineering somemore.
How to entrust our lives on them?!
So our raft was half sinking.
swam in the pool, was fun.
shopping! got quite a few stuff.
gala dinner.
Was asking to show my arse!
food was ok... had fun.
The SMART team.
Ted,the cutest guy there, was surrounded by yi ning, cheryl and jean.
imagine!
I prefer joseph type. Man!
Zhiming is funny, gayish and disturbing. haha
Cheryl got big small eyes and yi ning got funny brows.
Opps... They dun really tok to us till the day 3 and yi ning always always during discussion stared at us.(peiyu, xiao xi and me)
Roomates.
I did not really interact much with mine.
Hi, bye, nite.
I always head to xiao shi room after i did my stuff.
Baddie me!
Ho Rey nice guy, gave me morning call.
Walked to my room and ask for the wrong person. how smart!
Called me and ask wake up already?! If rebecca my roommate how!?
He is too quiet for his own good but a very responsible one.
Know lar! this is a late entry and a super long one.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Everyone will be missed.
I was told I got pple who doted on me.
Appreciates it and know who they are.
Special things they did like purposely go beach road buy torch lights and repellent for me.
Batteries included somemore!
Touched!
Makes me wonder will they one day felt tired giving me to much.
They expect nothing from me and give me unconditionally.
I just want to put them in my safe and never let them go.
How selfish?!
I don't want them to be just the special pple in that phase of my life.
I want them to be forever:<
Better get ready if not i will be late for fatimah!
ahaha... (some hawker)
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Damn...
Was home late due to Adrian's arrival... Bleah.
Intentionally was suppose to go hm and pack my luggage... I am very aunty..
But!!!
We got to go chalet and meet Adrian.
Had fun.
As usual, he did things that make me very guilty.
He passed me money, indirectly.
He just want me to have fun and enjoy myself.
I won't get to see him after yesterday.
He is going back on the 14th and bleah me coming back on the 14th.
The things he did, I will always remember and his kindness I vow to repay no matter wat.
How nice is it? I always wonder.
My benchmark and no one came closer other than alan and him.
A brother, a mentor, a gui ren and more.
I always felt guilty of whatever happened coz i am the indirect cause of them all.
If i just say i trusted fel's crap of adeline, things will be smoother for von and myself.
i don't have to ....
hai~
Plasma was fun. Sober and tired.
Girls' night bascially.
Sang, crap and waste.
Heard daniel want to go plasma.
Daniel... for wat?~!
I think I better pack and not whine here anymore.
moRE pics I promise.
Michelle Tan is attached... Happy for her and her bf not bad looking.
Lucky girl...
Thursday, October 06, 2005
Submitted by: Joelle
1. The nice men are ugly.
2. The handsome men are not nice.
3. The handsome and nice men are gay.
4. The handsome, nice and heterosexual men are married.
5. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men, have no money.
6. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men with money think we are only after their money.
7. The handsome men without money are after our money.
8. The handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat heterosexual, don't think we are beautiful enough.
9. The men who think we are beautiful, that are heterosexual, somewhat nice and have money, are cowards.
10.The men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have some money and thank God are heterosexual, are shy and NEVER MAKE THE FIRST MOVE!
11.The men who never make the first move, automatically lose interest in us when we take the initiative.
Conclusion~ Guys are idiot!
How good it is if women dun need men at all. I mean completely!
No plumbers, no electricians, no bell boy.
Bleah... seems impossible
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Spent my day reading my story book. I like.
Cup of milk, green apples as snacks
Me lying on my bed and reading my book.
That's life!
However, Life ain't perfect remember?
Heavy flow menses and painful skin.
Still red and raw but not too bad.
Is just me alone and indulging my own space just for today.
Painfully bored after finishing my book.
Took a walk and almost fainted on the way back.
Low blood! bleah!
Think I should just spend the rest of the week nua-ing on the bed.
Somehow I am still thinking that my exams ain't over.
insomia. Tossing. formula. blank out.
Wanna go Plasma this friday but gotta see von free anot.
staying over at her place again.
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Fun lar.
BUt ass painful. Got perky butt in the long run.
I was wearing slippers. Can u imagine?! Slippers threatening to slip off while pedalling.
Almost killed me.
I am not a good cyclist.
Beginner I must say.
Unstable and stiff.
haha
Was sitting down and enjoying the wind, sun and the sea while reading my storybook.
Just within 3 chapters, I turned into lobster!! I dun read slowly!
I am freaking red!
that's my fat arms.
I was wearing a tee shirt and I got that invisble sleeve on now... how cool-_-"
was wearing my bracelet and watch and now... i got this marks
Long sleeves till I am even out...
booboo.
Thur i got shishedo make up class.. how to learn with this face... everything will be darker tone than normal!
bleah!
Sunday, October 02, 2005