Tom Cruise movie. Wasn't interested in that movie at all.
Darn~ Slept through BIZLAW and dazed through PSCM.
Damn it I look awful with tissus stuck in my nose..
In my darkest mood and seemingly everything can strike the explosive in me.
a beautiful picture
She is pretty lar and darn skinny... imagine you can c visible rib cage ( the neck area)when she is wearing a tank top.
Damn 2 missing pairs of slippers!
senseless...
I got my neeon thanks to my sweet pals... run high and low for it..
Literally of course....
The weather? Yes, I am extremely agitated when the weather is hot. It makes me stink and I hate being stink, also, it makes me hot like a xiao long bao being steamed in some dim sum steamer. Then when you bite into my skin, the soup squirts out and your tongue will be scalded. Following that, you will pick up a cup of chinese tea to cool yourself, but alas, the tea is also hot!Your tongue becomes red and bloated! I hate being hot, warm and humid!
haha
Fel came back from HK with her craving for steamboat hence we headed to geylang for their yuan yang hou gou.
"All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped. Youth,like pristen glass, absorbs the prints of its handlers. Some parents smudge, others crack, a few shatter childhood completely into jagged little pieces, beyond repair."
So many stupid funny things happened today and i can't wait to write it down. OKok... currently onli can remember a few... if still haf i will update!
Work like you are not being paid,
Thanks sweetie!
There will never a GOOD ENOUGH one.ENOUGH is GOOD,but GOOD is never ENOUGH.Wrong or Right you decide
two tear drops were floatingdown theriver.
Yvonne said I was very rude to him.
But overall not bad lar. I cried. OKay fine! I am a cry baby.
I watch Lion King also can cry, imagine!
Is very much like that 'I don't wanna close my eyes' movie.
About alien and world ending soon.
Very family based movie and is damn touching lar...
Steven Speigburg (Fcuk lar dunno how to spell his name) 's movie so you can imagine how FICTION is it.
Been tied down to this fuck up sick body.
I cannot do this n cannot do that.
Feel bloasted somemore. Like a fish ball cooked too long in the soup; expanding!!!
Been indulging myself with Cold Cut Trio with plentiful of pickles and the chillis(dun bother to remember the name). Yum Yum Yum!
Love the white chocolate cookies:P
Love handles spilling out. Damn!
Have to go for hazel's wedding with that.
Meaning skip classes on friday again?!
Argh! wearing dress?~ argh!
dread dread dread!
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
He was not there.
Feeling hot and cold whole day even though I slept for QUITE some time.
Got to work in HV today, DAMN!
Cannot call to cancel too due to previous "something urgent" happening.
Blame it on me.
Jeremy vomitted and still have not recovered.
Poor Boy!
If is not him, I may feel healthy for as long as I want. Wat share drinks?! NOw I also sick le.
I demand a treat from him one day!
Sick can be an excuse to be on diet.
I feed on milo and bread only.
Damn the headache!
Monday, June 27, 2005
Enlarging my already ugly nose.
Sunday was great. Working with Jeremy has always been great.
Photo taking , jokes session and basically laughing at one another out of nothing.
Gem's hw: taking pics of insects, flowers and trees.
Darn Fun. I love black and white pics.
Cool ain't it?
Darn proud of these pics man...
Think I am GOD suddenly...haha
Saw him glancing again. Getting tired of it le lar.
Guess I am fickle.Bleah
Friday, June 24, 2005
Blame it on menses.
Chalet was fun, endless talks, endless vodka and rows of reading(fortune).
Life is great and wat more do I ask for?
Adrian.
I missed him lar... Drinking without him is different.
I tok to Sebastian.
Finished army and still coaching his girls.
Life is great for him I guess.
i dont treat pple so nice anymore---> that's wat he said.
He darn knows a way to make mi feel guilty.
At least, I still know that he is doing ok.
Thursday, June 23, 2005
an old couple went shoppin together.
the old lady could hardly walk,but holdin her hand the old man led her on.
they went into a shop and walked around.
neither of them talked but it seemed like they knew what each other wanted.
taking 2 similar sets of coffee cups,they paid and slowly,hand in hand,they walked out of the shop.
love.
makes all things beautiful.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Where is her breasTs?
She is tall and skinny.
Pretty?! Yes. OR should I say outstanding.
LOng blonde hair without bangs.
Big smile.
Big eyes and she hates DBS credit card the BAT MAN credit card.
Coz the card cannot be process.
Was doing cashiering today so I got the honour to serve her n I got her handphone number!opps...
BRibe mi pls!!!
Wahaha
She got cats and got tons n tons of cat food.
Of all thing, CATS?!
I hate skool today.
Was anticipating him to go for FMA but he didn't.
Almost had a chance to sit very close to him but did not.
Got out of Blaw class, he walked pass mi and I caught him side glance me.
I swear I did.
Monday, June 20, 2005
My fave white birke!!!! ok ok the fake one!
Is so comfy lor, i missed the comfort I found is that sandles.
Damn that idiot who stole it.
I pray that God will make him fall and lost money evertime he wore that.
MEAN! I Dun care...
My sis Adidas slippers also lost.... Think i should put a video cam outside my place.
Must be the sweepers or watever crap name u call them.
I swear I will GLARE at them everytime I c them and make sure they feel so guilty wearing OUR slippers!
Damn them!
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Ordinary...
Lack excitement...
I need Fun! NOise and party...
In the mood for night life... pple pls plan...
MOod going up n downS... Sherman had been my target for the day, poor him.
Thinking! he has start growing in my mind... Damn~
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Details?! nah... it onli makes me boil how uncle cheat small girl like mi!
I just love how sleeky n slim it is....
Yesterday, skipped alot of lessons...! Yah BAD GIRL! haha
The old group just talked non-stop. Erm... I am the one talking non-stop.:P
Slept real early!!! around 7?! haha
I was tired and am still tired!
Episode did not really end but it did not really started too.
I hope it dies away.
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
I felt cheated and played but is not his fault.
Is my own doing, zi zhuo duo qing or watever vocab to describe a love lorn.
Last night, I dreamt that he got a gf and unconsiciously i dropped a tear.
Woke up in shock and surprise. Y am I crying?! HIm?!
And today, this!
I am sad that he got a girl but more heartbroke that is all my wishful thinking that he likes mi too.
I saw him staring and double confirm with adel n peg... and I still get it wrong.
Sucker for love, some may say.
Kind souls will tell me that he onli go out with the girl ma also never hold hands or anything...
HELLO?~! I will not go out with a guy alone lor....
NOt even close friends.
OKay, i am conservative but .....
I dunno....
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
I love being cold, I'd rather be frozen than suffer and heatstroke.
Just imagine: I am an ice lolly.You take me out of the freezer and start licking me (oppps sounds very improper, but I AM AN ICE LOLLY, NOT XIAN), how does that feel? Soothing to your throat, cooling? Of course! Ahhh, the dream of having an ice lolly now is just so enticing.I want to bite myself.
haha
Adel n Peg saw HIM staring at pur direction during PSCM.
I am not imagining but how come he did not gif a damn abt me in BIZLAW or QANL?
Based on the 3 musketeers abilties, we found out he is about the same het as me and not shorter.
erm....
I think I better bite myself. HOT!
wat a way to phase it!?
I really do love him.
Nothing is boring with him around.
He put my hair or beat me but I will never be angry with him coz we both know we wan de qi.
However, he will be damn guilty lar.
He will keep apologising but I am not angry with him at all.
HE hugged me yesterday and said," I really treat you like my sister."
That's enough.
I think I was too high to tell him I treat him like a brother too but I just snuggled back.
Is something that we do not haf to say at all and both of us already acknowledged the bond between us.
Ah wee, adrian's buddy, know palm reading so being girls, we haunted him to read it for us.
He smell like andre guess is the perfume.
According to him, I will be married, career before 35 is counted successful and I will have a long life. However, career after 35 cannot c like dun haf. Is it means that I will be tai tai?! haha
I wun wanna be lar.
With Fel's matchmaking, ah wee keep touching (arms around me, poking at my waist which i dun like). He did it for the sake of doing it, you understand peer pressure?!
But he is nice lar.
Remember him as the guy who will bring Da Vinci Code to O bar. Diao haha
I had a wonderful night~ BUT now I got a fucking headache
Sunday, June 12, 2005
Some beijing cuisine shit. And is real shit! Their soup got spices which taste like ointment used when u sprained your freaking ankle.
Beef that is very xian but I have to say the prawns are real fresh and so is the fried man tou.
First time eat beijing food, first time eat yoghurt without spoon and first time feel so poor... that freaking dinner cost me $25!!!!
I wished I eat other things instead-_-"
Friday, June 10, 2005
Is urs only a smudge or a crack? Or worst, shattered?
Darn... While reading this book, thoughts run through mi...
It really get me thinking. Caning, slapping, insulting and mocking from my mum was way too common. Her way of teaching us but failed terribly.
At the tender age of 15, I already thought of moving out by the age of 21.
The thought still stand clear.
"Thinking you are alone is a waste time", I remembered reading.
So true hur. NO one is alone and even strangers do cross each other's life at some point of time.
I really love this book.... You should too
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Love like you have never been hurt
and dance like nobody's watching.
Never say "I Love You" if you don't care.
Never talk about feelings if there ain't there.
Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart.
NEver say you are going to, if you don't plan to start.
Never look into ones' eyes if all you have to say are lies.
Never whisper sweet nothing if the feelings are not true.
Never say hello if you really mean to say goodbye.
Never ever....
I was looking through my stuff when I browse through these stuff.
As usual, my table are like Mount Everest if you know what I mean!
Being me, I left it untouched.
Went to Mr Lee's room today(with Sze), he is in a relaxed mood so we talked alot about life and stuff.
He left me thinking.
Do I want a 9 to 5 job or something more?!
Am I going to just sit down and let things pass me by when I know I can do something about it?
I hate responsiblilty! I hate being wrong and hate it most if I am solely responsible of the failure.
Is like slapping yourself across the face; witness your own stupidity. I believe is SAVE to just shut up and follow instructions given, hence I am always a follower.
During Sec 4 when Mrs Nagoor, my form teacher den, nominated me and the class monitor for Special Leadership Camp, I was surprised and reluctunt.
I learnt alot but it did not polished me to shine like the others. I practically stayed in my shell.
Being a Leader is lonely. You on top of the hierarchy and no one is there with you.
Every year when skool starts, we got to elect a class monitor or chair person to hold the responsiblity of the class.
Some people will quietly hold their breathe praying that someone somehow will elect them to be the ONE and ONLY.
While others just hope that this ritual will be over soon.
I am in neither.
Half of me wants to be in control but another just want to leave life without responsibilty.
I am a contradiction myself...
Monday, June 06, 2005
Two very nice pple got me the PUMA perfume! I dunno whether I can mention here but thanks!!!!!
I didn't open the plastic bag till I reached hm.
Open it up and fiddling with it till I saw a note on the perfume box...
Pls dun pinch mi!-_-"
Now I think I sound like some psycho who loves to inflict pain on man!
Look at me ! I am HARMLESS! Dun be scare of me!
I wun chop u or slit ur throat.
I will onli pinch you when u r off guard, kick you where you pain most when you did ur bastard thingy or slap you if you cheater either me or my friend. Other than that you will be probably safe :>
We are always looking for someone who is GOOD ENOUGH but what/who is GOOD ENOUGH?
Felicia was telling me due to that idiot simon case,"If you are being TOO fussy now, in the end when you are much older,you are left with no one."
I am not trying to be mean here but if I chose Simon, I am really NOT FUSSY AT ALL. Totally drop my STANDARD drastically.
STANDARD?!
Yes, STANDARD!
I am not asking for Brad Pitt look-alike or Daniel Wu's clone to date me.(I know what standard I am)
AN AVERAGE JOE WILL DO!!!
But Simon is too extreme!!!! I am not trying to be real mean but pls take a look at HIM!!!
HE expects me to say HI to him, talk to him and even go watch movie with him!!!
Von told me not to be rude and fel asked me to not to be too fussy.
Pls let me die!!~
Friday, June 03, 2005
one tear drop said to the other,"i'm the teardrop ofa girl who loved a guy and lost him. who are you?""i'm the teardrop of the guy who regret letting a girl go.."
she teardrop consoled, "there would come a timewhen we have to stop loving someone becausewe found out that they'd be happier if we let them go..."
he teardrop replied, "but then you'll know that youmiss someone very much when everytime youthink of that person, your heart breaks into piecesand just a quick 'Hello' from that person brings thebroken pieces back..."
she teardrop said, "it's really painful to saygoodbye to someone else that you don't want tolet go; but it's even more painful to ask someone tostay if you can never make the relationship workout the way it should be."
she continued, "LOVE? it's kind of complicated,buti'll tell you this... the second you're willing tomakeyourself miserable to make someone else happy,that's love right there.."
he teardrop pondered and said, "you know, if i hadthe letters "HRT", i can add "EA" to geta "HEART"or a "U" and get "HURT". but i'd rather choose "U"and get "HURT" than have a "HEART"without "U"...
she teardrop smiled and replied, "giving someoneall your love is not an assurance that she will loveyou back. don't expect love in return, wait for it to grow in her heart, if it doesn't, be contented it grows in yours."
he teardrop continued, "she told me once, do notbe too good, i will miss you. don't be too caring; imight like you. don't be too sweet; i might fall foryou."
she teardrop smiled and said, "A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes."
She teardrop continued, "if you love her please lether know because it hurts to love when you have to go. take care of me; don't go away because if you love me, you will stay.. i love you and do you know why? you got me when you first said 'Hi'"
he teardrop said, "you are brave she tear drop,now i know it's always better to have found the courage to love even if you lose it in the end rather than never found love because you were too afraid of the challenge."he teardrop continued further, "didyou know that the expression "Nothing" is the sub-conscious mind's way of saying I Love You...that'swhat ido,i told her NOTHING and because of that i lost her even though i love her... i cry for the timethat she was almost mine, i cry for the memoriesi've left behind, i cry for the pain, the lost, the old and the new. i cry for the times i thought i had her!"
she teardrop consoled, "Relationships are like glass, sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together, orworse, have nothing strong to bind it together.younever lose in loving. you only lose in holdingback."he teardrop cried,"Now i know, i have learnt.don't throw your back to love when it's already infront of you, don't drive it away from you becauseif you did, someday you'll think again why you let love fly away when it was once next to YOU..."
He liking me is not as if he commited a crime and definitely do not deserve the treatment I gave him.( eg shun him, ignore him, glare at him)
Hence, today I say hi to him and am very nice to him.
Not that I wan to hit on him but just stay as friends.
I just want to be nice.
Imagine I like a guy and he treats mi that way, not nice right?!
So being the angel, I heed von's advice.
If he EVER,EVER ask THAT qns, I will reject him straight to his face!
I am not running away anymore.
Since he already asked fel for advice (eg will i go watch movie with him etc etc), I think I have to plan my speech. Darn fel, becoz of her match making I am so doom here.
So wat he has a platinum card? So wat he knows alot of big shot? So wat he is humble?So wat ...So wat?
I don't give a damn. I don't give a damn that he is ugly.
I don't give a damn that he is short. I don't give a damn that he is old.
I don't give a damn that about his past. I don't give a damn about HIM at all!
Age, ht, wt, past, character, religion etc etc all comes second.
The flicker of chemistry comes first.
So what if he is a good man like Jeff?
I wun like him in that sense.
So what if he reads mi like a book like daniel( used to?)?
I wun like him in that sense too.
So what if he is as ti tie as JW?
okay.... I may like him. haha
Watever it is... I am deeply stressed and completly lost.
Thursday, June 02, 2005
