Tired.
Tok to amanda and elvin in skool today.
"You don't love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her."
damn how much i hate studying for exams.
You are tending to pursue your objectives with concentrated intensity and it would seem that whatever obstacles may come into your path, you will stick to your guns and will not allow yourself to be deflected from your purpose. You are striving to achieve recognition and what is more - you deserve it.
So Hate today.
Friday
Recently had the honour to tok depth heart to heart toks with my bitches.Separately though.
Surprised by all the participation.
If love is like a bus stop. how will it be like and how do u describe urs??(write in the tagboard if u wan)
Friendster Horoscope just slammed mi with reality!
You are 39.68% jealous!
Woo... exams coming real soon without me noticing.
Wind kisses ur face and vapour stinging onto the face. Ur life is in control by urself.
Back to chivas and plasma.
Shopping. Isetan. Discount. Topshop. Zara. Oh.
Indulge in retail therapy.
The want to just shop and released the bottled up stress.
Now I feel like crying.
Chiong for a piece of cert. How stupid.
Got the feeling to just leave and answer to no one.
Disappearing act?!
I will miss von.
Her as especially. Tok to her every single day.
My little soul mate whom I love and hate.
We two strong headed shit heads. haha
We hit up front and never really got into any argument.
The magic of chemistry.
haha
okay... i should start my trainning le... run and swim.
Be the lean and muscular xian
after pscm... i will... i hope
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
The Girl. My Reflection. Watching her scratched her head when she fail to attempt the questions that confronted her.She knows she knew it but somehow it escaped from her.Panick, her hands proceed to grab her hair.That girl looks so familar. Loud she is and so full of expectations for her bleak future.Always telling me her dream.Her family, her future husband, her kid(s) and her job.So full of dreams.Her innocence, her being so green and naive about the working of the world never fails to amazed me. Once upon a time, I was like that too.Sponteneous and so willing.So willing to face the world and ready for the ups and downs.Slap on the face, hit from the reality. I was wrong. I was too believing.God knows which Devil turn me to a person I am now.But I am glad for watever was learnt.The girl who looks like me.She doesn't know what she is facing and unaware of the danger she is going to face. Always giving and never receiving.Tired, seek freedom as solitude.Always a listening to people but who wants to listen to her?People who she regards as besties had always failed her when she needs them. Afraid.Afraid to regards anyone as besties anymore.The hurt, the pain, is more painful than losing her favourite dog.Trying to be someonw she never will be.To be smart, to be pretty and be accepted. Is she crying behind the jovial character?She laughed because she is really happy?She will one day soak her pillow with the woes and burdens that people had entrusted to her.She will love walking in the rain, was it the tears u saw or just the rain drops? That girl, my reflection. I see myself in her.
Monday, September 26, 2005
Amanda very HAPPENING type.
The chic is noisily fun while the dude is quietly ... I dunno wat lar.
Damn wisdom tooth. Is making hard to shut my freaking mouth.
Pain!
I am the fridge raider!
Raid-ed the fridge while I am suppose to study for my exams.
Fat! Fat Fat!
Special food craving during pregnancy? haha
Chocolate + chicken chop!
yucks!
Durian + cheese!!!
double yucks!
Weird people hur... haha
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Why all of us chase after the illusion to look like someone whom we will never be?
Realistic world I admit.
Is the people that make this world.
"If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were."
You know what I mean.
Wat is urs is urs.
Accept fate.
I intend to look for a job.
a job that is not related to grooming anymore.
Remy, shh... read and forget.
U tend to say things without thinking whether or not u should say it! yesh u remy.
alot of things to do and say but no time.
I need to sit back and relax, reading my story books and absorb the serenity.
Running. Swimming. Plasma.
After my papers.
30th the last day.
Friday, September 23, 2005
I just can't stop falling asleep while studying.
Take MR as an example, I attempt sleeping the whole time!!!!
How productive.
Finding excuses to raid the fridge.
Damn I am sure to be fat.
Studying will make one fat! Make one sleep! so pigish!
Will be staying over at von's place. Study. Run and go work together.
Tarots is one of the condition.
Damn. So heavy with the book and the deck of cards.
Only intend to help her do the spread and no one else. Is even more tiring than studying!
NO plasma. BOo.
NO clubbing. boo boo
NO life. BooBooBoo
untidy bushy brows. untidy hair. no sense of dressing. no accessories.
Damn I hate exams!
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
You are willing to try anything once. You 'need to be needed' and what is perhaps more important you 'need to need.' You can only feel close to a person or persons when you feel you can trust them, but this trust needs to be proven to you.
Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.
Wat can I say?
Is true.
http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/
Monday, September 19, 2005
The blues, the stress, the over stretched rubber band and the flowing tap.
Can u believe it! I cried becoz uncle put cheese in my pasta!
I was holding my tears for the whole day and that stupid cheese trigger everything in me.
Uncle never put cheese in pasta and how come today he adds in?! Backside itchy?!
Just not my day.
I was told to work one day instead of both in EP.
Equals to half a pay gone!
Either that or fel have to lay off one.
How to do tat?! I can't be selfish just becoz I need money and just fire another who needs money it as badly as I am.
Decision repected but clouds of worries filled my small like tiny brain.
I either get another job which means quit this to get a weekend job or work in retail side.
Damn I chose the latter but is a matter of time I will quit and look for another.
A matter of time.
Studies?! Damn that man. I cannot bear to fail any module.
I dun wish to forward module. Last year I didn't, this year I wun let it happened.
Studied MR but proceed damn slowly.
Cau how to finish?!
Pay not in. Bills keep coming in.
Mum bugging over shits.
Ask mi to decipher the name of that ugly signature.
Siao! Her signature also never write her name lor.
Sometimes I think she can be that brainless make mi scream at her so she can scold me for being diesrespectful.
Ah! I just feel like hibernating .... like a bear.
Let me be.
Sunday, September 18, 2005
Was studying with sze in the lib.
Spent a bomb at the cafe eating spag, nuggets, wedges and tea.
FAT FAT FAT!!!
Gotta know keene, a small yet irriating kid, who keep on pestering us to give up our comfy cushion seat.
Keene kept on talking to us though we had loads of books in front of us, in the end, we pass him the cushion from the chair to get him off our arses.
The waitresses there too like us and start toking to us and damn... we want to study!
After which, i caught a midnight movie with von. The Longest Yard, nice flick.
I like football. I like The Replacement and definitely like adam sandler.
Touching with funny touch to it.
WWF fan?! Even better.
I like Goldberg and Stone cold!
They are impressive.
Nelly? haha Meggert. U watch u will be impressive by him.
He acted better than shaggy and snoop dog.
He raps and he knows how to act.
Noted! Midnight movie pls bring a jacket.
Von n I shivered like hell and I went work with a bad flu!
Sat
Working in EP and was busy talking about wt lose again.
Typically girly tok but this time is among the guys though.
Run and swim.
Makes mi Like chyna. ( dunno?! dun bother den)
Run and swim... argh!
Friday, September 16, 2005
Every single soul have a piece of something that is easily broken regardless how strong or independent the person appears to be.
Okay, the three of us looks like GIANT.
Many thinks we do not need any support or any extra care.
We are independent and are strong enough to do all the shits ourselves.
How crap!
Is always ourselve we depend on or on some lucky days, some kind souls or pple we bullied will help us.
HOw infuriating!
A big girl and a small girl in a room.
Small girl cry. big girl sure got the blame!Even though small girl cry due to her shitty watever reasons!
i Hate small dainty girls! Coz they r princesses to the guys.
I can't stand girls who only know how to cry or ask their bf to hold their HANDBAGS!
that heavy ar?! hand will break izzit? and guys, pls be man enough to reject a girl who ask u to hold their handbags!
Dun be a sissy coz u look like a pussy!
Got this from my conversation wif sze which quoted it from wp's blog:
"Well its been a really time since i rethink what love is about.. Well since i'm already in love now it comes as a daily thing for me, and in some sense i take it for granted i suppose.. well looking at others still searching for it haha i almost forgot how bad the feeling can be, the longing for love.. waking up every morning thinking about a girl or guy, hoping that he/her will return your love, the emptiness inside of you, the anxiousness of waiting an answer.. hahahahahaha all those feelings seem so familiar to me.. Well at least now i wake up knowing that someone accepts me as a companion and loves me.. "
hey this guy makes us sound so PATHETHIC!
haha but isn't it true?!
longing for love. ok that only happens to me before i sleep.
the emptiness inside u. ok that onli happens to me when i am alone, train, bus or watsoever.
So real. so scary.
U only got ur ownself feeling.
I hate it.
Anyway, went zouk for the first time.
Drinks are ex.
Crowd are goodlookers.
Packed place.
Music so so.
Is bua bua bua lor... u can't possibly bother who touched ur arse or rubbed pass ur breast.
As quoted from bird's friend, we can only move up and down.
Wasn't sweating lar.
But can u imagine u bua me when i am sweating! yucks! haha
Had fun just dancing. So long since I club.
Still very much taking care of pple in club.
Making sure this is ok. that is fine.
haha but overall, cool!
Roland like the mother hen, always making sure everything is ok.
HE is erm... goodlooking from the shoulder down.
Ht 187cm.Marvellous.
Wide shoulders. sexy
Gentleman. rare species.
Lean. ok hard and lean!
BUT BUT BUT.
He damn uncle lar.
mess up my hair when i called him mother hen.
BOTAK CAN BE SEXY TOO so stop wearing cap!
dressing sense.. erm... not to my taste.
haha
Overall, I think I pei bu shang him!!! hahaahaha
sounds so wei da!
Bird, not bad lar... gd catch! grab him! hui lee attached... if not i asked her too.
haha anyway, when he accidentally touched mi i dun haf the "electrifying feeling" so teh!teh!teh!!
Scorpio somemore. High sex drive!
Bird turn into gong ji!! haha
I am biased!
Monday, September 12, 2005
Some shy souls even tell me in person abt their bus stops haha.
Took me off guard but was really cool.
ME and my stupid idea.
Yesterday von came to EP to "sup" the dogs.
Was busy the whole day.
Fel was tired and hv no dogs so we called for additional help.
Chop chop. Eight we left the place to the prata house.
Crispy plain prata at thomson. Yummy!
Walk from there to ang mo kio.
Dark creepy road which sent chill down to my spin.
At one point, we even see mongrels! barking at us and the factory gate was not even closed!
we heard dogs barking while walking and i started pulling von to my side. Gut feeling tells mi so.
We saw a while mongrel running loose and was barking at us. Stunned.
Another came,black this time.
And two more, black and another brown.
Damn.
Heart stopped.
Only me kept staring at them. Second thought, shit I got dogs smell.
Especially skin problem dog's smell.
Von grabbed me and was asking me to cross the road.
I wasn't sure wat the hell von was doing. She is not crossing. The dogs are barking and moving forward slowly. She is waiting for the car to horn at us! ok smart move.
When we are crossing, I was so scared.
I started my brisk walk pace which somehow agitated the dogs and they are abt to charge at us.
Von grabbed me even tighter, "dun!"
Nothing was said or done. Von took charge. She got the experience.
After that while talking abt the eventful nite, we admitted we were scared stiff.
haha
Damn von's mouth. I remembered she cursed me abt encounting mongrel a few weeks ago.
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Dan
He is playing with the driver by putting his hands up and down.
The driver dunno whether to stop for him or not.
Jeff
He is running for the wrong bus(es)
Mi
Dan said I am always late for the last bus.
But i think for me, my bus stop have no bus.
I am waiting for an imaginery bus that do not exist.
Had a cake from pan pac and is unimagineable yummy.
trust me! is y---u---m---m---y!
Someone pls bring mi there to eat... I dunno how to go!!!
my nose is running!!! dripping mucus.
yucks! either someone is missing me badly or i am having a bad flu. Sneeze non stop.
Friday, September 09, 2005
Cau!
Can u imagine?!
Get an image overhaul by getting a really clear look at yourself. Why get a physical makeover when all you actually need is a little boost in your self-esteem? Not only is it easier on your wallet, but the effects are far more lasting and satisfying in the end. Most importantly, don't let sentiment cloud your judgment, especially when it comes to tossing ideas and preconceived notions that really just don't fit you -- if they ever did.
I was telling bird yesterday that without yummilicious bob at least i can complement it with presentable looks. now?! Horoscope ask mi to stop all the shit n boast my own self-esteem!
Yah dah yah dah... preach me all about confidence and watsoever.
is not my fault to have no confidence when the whole world judge pple by their looks and watsoever.
Including me. I admit.
Get a reality check and dun be an angel.
Who really believes looks really do not matterS?!
even an ugly man has a degree to it...
Very ugly, disgustingly ugly or average ugly.
Dun tell me that u accept all the degree of ugly.
Impossible!
Bird help me see this.
To me, even though how good looking the guy is, once he talked and is all about himself.
I switch off. Total turn off.
Any examples?! Junwei and elvin. ps they ain't goodlooking either
Is all about themselve.
Pple asked, how come u never like jw b4?
He is so sweet and so touchy.
Hello! Firstly, we are buddies. secondly, is all about himself.
What more should I said?! -shrug-
The meeting for the bitches was fulfilling.
Bird said something about nothing wrong with being single and god is fair.
I think that we dun need another one to make ourselve whole. We are already whole by ourselve. Just that we didn't notice or acknowledge that.
Sometime someday, we all need a shoulder to lean on and a hug.
To find someone who really care.
it ain;t easy to walk this life alone but we still have to do it.
HOw damn!
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
This percentage means that :
•You are not a jealous person, but sometimes can be.
•Occasionally, you over-react to situations.
•Most of the time, you trust the people around.
•Jealously will not be a major issue in relationships, but you might want to improve your self-esteem.
http://tests.studentcenter.org/jealousytest.php
PHew!
I am not a green eye monster!
Improve self esteem... erm.. haha
Better find all my notes and start mugging.
Saving money, my number one core goal in life.
Opening an account when i get my pay on the 7th I guess.
Pay only 300+ so little :<
Pathetic.
Fun train rides yesterday with the yummilicious topic.
Never laugh till my stomach pain and digest watever I eaten previously.
Can't stop thinking of eating but yet dunno wat to eat?! help!!!!
Von displayed her unsightly act and my laughter caught alot of pple's attention...
Jeremy lar...! so open hence spur us to say more.:P
von going kl on thursday. Bird going Zouk tonight. Ar! So gian
But got alot of shit to finish up.
I need slp....
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Ur leg decides on the speed you wish to go.
How wonderful life is if u know how to drive...
Yes, Drive.
I am a speed monster with a fetish for good sound system.
I dun need to have a BMW or Jaguar or watsoever.
A small 4 seater car will do.
I am easily contended.
Andy's driving illegally yesterday.
Reckless driver, I like:P
Makes me excited and on the edge of my seat.
Swirling here and there. Cutting lanes.
Like a machine meant for Speed!
Never had a chance to witness rounding or experience such... I wish ... I wish...
haha
Vera is coming back right?! when when when?!
Sunday, September 04, 2005
Is way cool drinking and having fun.
Dior was there for both nites too.
Damn cool tattoo she got there... yummilicious:P
Think she slim down also, due to training?!
Von n I screw up a few songs there and had fun laughing at anything.
was fun... though once is a while i do think of vera.
Vera u r not forgotten!!!! Dior was counting down the hrs vera is coming back...
So kua zhang!!!!
lynnette, ky, tall guy, rico, alot of people were toking and singing with us. Is so cool!
Loads of pics of us were taken... sexy? cute? shocking?! u name it we got it!
Hilarious!
This is the life i seek... a life of my own.
Last day of hungry ghost... sweety von volunteered to help mi burn incense and remy join becoz he dun haf a choice... haha..,. u r all deeply appreciated... really....
Friday, September 02, 2005