bleah. siansational. Alot on my mind but nothing to write.
Such an eventful day.
Tiring.
Legs sore from all the dancing.
Conclusion made for the night out are of the following:
1) I prefer ChinaBlack
2) I am a nun
3) I am too naive4) Xiao Shi is crazily FUN!
5) Looks matters everywhere even prata shops! (FUCK!)
Was yesterday fun?
I think it was ok. Too much unwanted attention from the guys.
Obviously the attention wasn't directed at me but to my girlfriends.
Guys trying very hard to dance outrageously just to gain their mere attention.How pathetic!
I think I am some sort of a hinderance to the guys as usual. Blocking them from further proceeding with their "Attacks" to our group of girls. However, it was unintentional for my case.
The music as usual was not too good, crowd was too purposefully hunting for chicks and drinks was not enough.
I was so happy to see NANA! Was her 20th birthday!
Happy Birthday, girl! Pretty with perms!!
I did the most ridiculous thing in my life.
Dancing on the platform with my girls and was "ATTACKED" by an angmoh.
Before that I was thinking maybe I should try opening up and stop being a NUN!
That asshole grabbed me and adjusted himself to fit between me. Basket!
I was very much shocked and was looking for help. Luckily, Pei Yu saved me and he proceed to Angela.
I felt..... depreciated.
At that moment, I knew the fact that I am not only conservative, I do not belong to the 21st century! Others were enjoying the attention showered by the ang moh except me.
haha.Can't stop laughing just thinking of the incident.
Went out to rest with Xiao Shi and left others with the "predators".
I really enjoyed just sitting down and chat after "excercise" . The heart to heart type chat.
Guilty of whatever we said but was the truth from the bottom of our heart.
Dreams of backpacking and scruba driving was reveiled from the horse mouth and never did I expect her to have the same dream.
Come! Let's make a pact! We'll do both together,k?
Went to eat and was filled with the girls' hunting experiences.
Xiao shi called it the aftermath of clubbing.
The pretty ones always have privilleges.
Accept the fact, I did.
Revealed too much secrets yesterday and now I have to bear the conseqences if someone spilled it.
I think I don't belong to the clubbing world. Main intention was to have fun but in the end, I felt like some pageant thingy.
photos of the girls
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
What is wrong with pple?!
They just don't understand, do they?
We are all communicating in the same language and yet we don't understand each other.
Such an irony.
Must EVERY thing be said so bluntly?! Yes, I mean EVERY thing.
Raj can you fucking understand when I tell you to just leave the powerpoint out?!Can you fucking stop irritating me with your endless questions?
Peggy can you understand what I am pissed about?! That you asked me to tell you the date we are going clubbing so you can plan your scheldule (be off that day) and yet you are working on that friday! How fantastic! I am not angry that you are working just that, why waste my time contacting others and push them to tell me when is it when you will be working that day? (yes, you explained but somehow i am still sore abt it)
Yen yen we ask you to help us and yet was a public revision thingy.
I understand that we should not be so selfish and is for the humanity... blah blah blah.
All I need is a yes you will meet me to discuss in private or in a class with other irritating already A's students. I felt like walking out of the class when I know maltese couple were there with penny! Hello! PENNY, the one who boast that her class has tonnes of honour's roll including herself?!
WTF!
I seriously don't understand people.
Perfect 10 advertisement saying," looking for a soul mate that is forever."
Fuck off, nothing is forever.
Not even friends, love or even fame.
Nothing is stable.
If you don't believe, pls fuck the wall. thanks you.
Haven't found someone whom I can club with.
Friends that will not ruin MY MOMENT due to stupid little things. YES!
MY MOMENT.
I am selfish. Who isn't?!
I have enough people who waste off my clubbing times and sadly I don't have much of such times. I am not greedy.
I just want a happy bunch and all letting go when the music plays at the background.
I don't even need them to stick with me or dance like JLo. I just want everyone to enjoy.
So hard to achieve?
Enough of black faces, standing like a block and people who pretend to enjoy themselves.
I am fucking angry and frustrated.
Just feels like skinning someone alive and rub salt to the wounds and watch the person groan in pain. Sadist, I am.
*Sobbing* I just want to have fun. Can't I?
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Monday, January 16, 2006
I intend to post the report I did for the director of SB here.
We brought this incident to the Director's attention and hope to seek justice to this event.To: The Person In-Charge
Dear Sir/Mdm,
Re: The fighting on 16th January 2006
Time: 1200
Venue: Nearby FLLC
I was walking towards MLT 10 at around 12.00 pm with two other friends far behind me, whose names are Wong Sze Yuan and Bernice Tay. I turned to check out whether they have caught up with me as class were to be commerce soon, when the girl named Teresa intentionally pour a cup full of Grapenade directly at Sze Yuan. The girl with the smug look was ready to walk away with her group of friends (4 in total) when Sze Yuan charged towards her and grabbed her by the neck, at the same time shouted at her,”What are you doing!?” in Chinese. The next moment, the two of them were tugging at each other but due to the angle (Sze Yuan’s back was facing me) I was standing I was not able to see how each of them attacked.
I did not walked forward to stop as Su Ling, Teresa’s friend, was pulling Sze Yuan’s left hand but little did I know that she was not trying to pull them apart but was helping with the fighting. She was jerking at Sze Yuan’s hair. Seeing that, I rushed in between them to prevent Su ling from pulling anymore of Sze Yuan’s hair and pull Teresa and Sze Yuan apart, at the same time shouting at them to stop fighting and settle it in a controlled manner.
All of them backed off and was talking in a calm manner. Sze Yuan asked what she did to deserve all these as this is not the first time Teresa had behaved in this manner. According to her, the staring incident (quite long ago) was the root of the problem. However from what I remember clearly, we were sitting on the bench at level 2 and Teresa and friends were walking passed us and was staring at us from one end to another. She even shouted” see what see!” in Chinese to us. Teresa also mentioned the recent banging incident with Sze Yuan at the walkway linking Block 22 to the elevators. As usual, I was standing in front of Sze Yuan (single –line form) and was aware Teresa is heading towards our direction. However, we did not expect Teresa to bang her again. Before that Sze Yuan was telling me that she does not wish to be bang again by her after the library incident. I saw Teresa purposefully charged towards Sze Yuan like a bulldozer and will all her might causing Sze Yuan to bounce to the side of the walkway. After which, the two of them started having verbal fights commenting who was fatter and who was blocking the way.
I was about to defend Sze Yuan as I was the only witness for all 3 events but was shouted by Su Ling to keep my comments to myself and let them settle among themselves. Sze Yuan out of concern asked her how was her neck injuries as prominent red marks were shown around her neck. Sze Yuan also asked her to wash her wound and each headed different ways then. Bernice and I advised Sze Yuan to consult admin regarding disciplinary action of SP
We were directed to Ms Au and then back to Admin where we talked to the Director regarding the fight.
Friday, January 13, 2006
Shoo!
Men just leave me alone.
Yes! I am talking about the male species.
They are..... irritating!
Can't I just dress up?!
Must there be a reason to do anything?
Can't I dress up to make myself feel better?!
URgh! Irritating.
Stop staring even though I did look better.
Hate the sudden attention I got.
Is irritating!
Guys are so typical.
If all girls put in some effort in their dressing, guys will shower you endless attention.
Just a skirt and some light makeup, a tom boy xian turned into a lady.
Guys who usually treat me like dirt and sometimes makes me wonder whether they ever treat me like a girl are giving me so much respect and even flirt with me!
Wonderful!
That's why I prefer being the tom boy xian. Is.... so comfortable and so real.
No unwanted attention nor constant probing on why I dress like this and that.
Guys can even lied to the extend of telling me that I have nice features!
Fuck! I got small eyes, big nose, short lashes and freckled face.
What nice features I have got?
Please don't cock and say that it is snowing when Singapore don't snow!
I bet is the lighting.
Went Balcony with Von after plasma.
The place was ok and drinks are expensive.
I ordered a cocktail named "MULTIPLE SEXUAL ORGANSM" which tasted like Egg Nog without nutmeg.
Ah! bernice! haha
On the other hand, von who is not daring with drinks or food ordered cranberry cooler.
So embarassing to order.
The waiters are all male!
"1 cranberry cooler and ...erm....1 multiple sexual .... erm... yah"
I bet he memorised the menu cause he knew what I wanted before i finished saying.
When it arrived, damnation!
Is worst than ordering.
"Multiple sexual organsm?" waiter A stared at both of us. I guess I imagined the cheeky look on him when he awaits for any sign of recognition of the cocktail.
"ha..ha... just leave it there," i replied in the most gan jiong look, indirectly acknowledging I am the kinky one who ordered.
"haha is always like that but it ok. Don't be shy."
I almost wanted to jump down from the Balcony and die a horrible death in the mere age of 19 and 8 months old. Or maybe paralysed and bedridden for all my life.
In the midst of our deep deep very deep conversation, the memorised menu waiter walked to us and start telling us that a group of guys find us interesting and hope to buy us a round of drinks.
HUH?!
WAH!
Interesting?! diao. WTH!
We were sitting at the dark corner of the pub and was covered by the dark shadows.
Certainly we were not that attention seeking.
Von did the talking.
v:" we still have drinks"
w: "how about after this drink?"
v:" you want to make sales issit?"
w:" no no no is my job plus I know the guys. They just want to have companion."
DEH DEH DEH!!!
What companion?! Fuckers! We look like hookers?!
v:" so how? you want?" staring at me to make the final say.
Being a nun, I rejected!
Lesson learnt!
Look is very important!
Von and I dressed up and we got the unneccessary attention.
Now I believed that guys are idiots!
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Troubled by love?
Missy Xian will ease your pain.
Compiling a “how to woo a girl” for BK as to show my gratitude towards him.
I am not a very good candidate to be advising on such a topic myself.
WARNING:Only can use it as a reference!!!
School had been ok for me and projects are still on hold.
The motivation is still not intact.
Haven't been Plasma-tified for a long time.
Maybe I will go down this thursday to finish the remaining bottle of chivas with von.
Designed my name in those curly wovy font while listening to the radio playing sad love songs.
Had fun but had lost the creative touch in me.
Remember the days I thought I will either study design or hairstyling but reality hit me.
Is all about the money in this really really practical world.
Nora ma said that,"my advise for u is to take one ting @ a time..u plan now oso no use coz future uncertain ma... when the time comes then u will prob noe lor..esp when ur abt to graduate... den from there u agak2 noe wat u may wan to do n wats the job mkt gg to be like..."
The conversation continues but left me in a blur state after she left.
Chum Chum!
New Year is nearing yet I can still see my humps, lumps and bumps!
Felt fat just seeing sze pulling the OP skirt.
basket!
Let me be motivated!
Friday, January 06, 2006