maybe if i didn't seek von's help, the dog will die on me.mayb den, I will be fired.maybe von won't have to get into deep shit.maybe helping her with the report will make mi less guilty.maybe if we ain't that close, she may be saved.She told me she was grateful I witnessed the procedure.I can back her up coz I am the only eye witness.However, I think I complicates things even more.Von and I are damn close, people thinks I sided her.I covered up her shits.Pains me to see her cry.Pains me even more coz I needn't try my best to take the dog out myself.I tried twice but why not thrice?!I thought she was okay as it was quite sometime ago, but I was wrong.Yesterday night at Plasma, she suddenly cover her face.Must be that dog.The more she cried, the more guilty I felt.I brought this to her.she didn't blame me but I blamed myself.A gentle jerk, a deadly movement, that cause the dog to die.Who in the rightful mind will think that a jerk can kill a dog?!Don't they understand?! That dog was a freaking OLD SICK dog.Argh!No more dramas in my life I pray....fri: fun.Not enough seats thus was asked to share with Thomas and jasmine.The min I knew we were supposed to sit with them, I laughed loudly.Von slapped my back. Rude, she said.I can't help it! Sitting with the older generation leh! So sian one.Damn von ditched me for acall, leaving me staring at them and they staring back.Instinct, toast to them and being nice they toast back.heng ar! imagine them ignore a kiddo who play yum sing herself.Was basically drinking and staring at the "I don't know what oldies song" and act interested.Them playing the dice and laughing caught my attention.Did small talks, laughing and watching.Von finally back and too started talking to jasmine while me continuing to watch and drink.Lionel came over and played with thomas, more fun!The battle of the mens!!! Thomas don't even have to look at his dice and he knows, he knows he will win.Weird to see a man that confident.Some sum seng uncle.I only came to know that he is actually a lawyer.Wah cau! Gangster lawyer! And "dunno how tall the sky is and how wide the ground is", I discussed CHINA PPLE and SINGAPOREANS to him.He suddenly asked me to play a game with him. Onz lar!I asked played wat. Dice. Onz lar!The bets?! Winner have the say. Winner wants you to do what u do wat.HUH?! Diao.I paused for awhile and flashes of what can happened appears.What if he asked me to do the impossible how?!kiss him?! strip?! pay him?! blah blah blahokay fine I admit I am a nun lar.I am just not confident on winning.Don't want to risk. I always take the safest route.Same for the course I chose. The major decisions made.He started preaching me. Flashes of alan, kat, Pei shan and daphne.Different events but both came after an another.Betrayal, Trust, Money, Heart and my innocence lost.Once believed in things but I was told not and learnt it the hard way.Fall to hard and refused to stand up den.Remembering the sec days where we learn ice skating.I fall and fall.Hurt my bums and laughed it off.I knew falling makes me learn but hurting too much just tires me off.Kept falling and falling.Laughing at myself doesn't console me that much anymore.I vowed not to step on the ring anymore.Too scare to fall anymore, I refused to stand.Refused to learn that damn skating business.Push the offer when Adrian asked me to join his ice hockey teams.I wanted to but I am scared of falling even with the protection gears on.Once bitten twice shy hur....Sounds lame to some people but I seriously don't care what the shit they think about me.Thomas said we are fated to know each other.I want to learn. The ways of life.He sound logically correct.But vera and von said listen ok liao but don't believe.Too Shan liang. Trust pple too easily.Too much of something is never good.I am too fat. bleah. masque me for the event 11:10 PM _____________________________________________________________________________________
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