Freaking depresssed!damn angry with myself...Feel STUPID! REAL STUPID!I dun think i am cut out to study....Not good in any subjects...not english... not anythingMy life is a mess.I don't know what I want in life, what to expect in the future and who.I am wasting my life away.Already 19 yet living life so aimlessly.Mum nag non stop too.Ask me this , ask me that, as if I am Miss Know It All.Ask me to teach my bro, ask me about the giro, the shares and many small little things.Bro's smoking habit is back and smelling the ciggy on him really diminished my trust for him.Thinking of excuses to help him cover up and lead me in dilemma of whether to tell my mum.Can't they just lead their own life and not interrupt with mine?!Felicia's soap opera love story also brain craking. Whatever Andy did, she will have something to rebuke him. Leading me and yvonne in confusion and in trouble. NOw i got to watch what I said if not I may get Andy into trouble.Tell me, can life be any more difficult than I am undergoing now?Working... Ping had been giving me a cold shoulder ever since the bet and talking about the bet, I have not get the money yet.Hence, equal to drink for nothing.After exams= worry for results= worry for the options.Non-stop.Doubt I can really rest.Why am I slogging?I need to indulge on retail therapy badly!I need to shake my bootie, BLACKS! masque me for the event 3:10 AM _____________________________________________________________________________________
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